How I Knew It Was Time to Leave My Full-time Job To Work For Myself
Every time I sit down to write this post I find myself deleting it. While I know how and why I came to leave Corporate America, it’s hard for me to advise any one else to do the same.
And here’s why: I honestly feel as though I didn’t have much of a hand in the decision to quit working for The Man. In fact, there are times when I entertain the idea of going back and giving it another go. Why? Because working for yourself is HARD. Not knowing when my next check will come in is HARD. Not being able to have nice things and go on vacations is HARD. Building a brand from the ground up without the financial resources to do so is HARD. But I’m doing it, and some people find the fact that I continue to move forward despite these obstacles inspirational. I just think I’m insane.
Inspirational and/or insane, I’m here and it’s a testament to perseverance, and the willingness to believe when there really isn’t anything tangible telling me to continue to believe. I have absolutely no reason to believe that building my brand will result in my ability to truly live out my dreams, and yet and still I continue to do it. Yet and still, I believe.
How I got here and what ultimately forced me to leave full-time employment is pretty straight-forward. I know now, and have always known my value. Therefore, when I found myself constantly in positions where neither my supervisors nor my salary quite measured up to what I knew I was worth, I made the decision to forge out out on my own.
I tried desperately to rise in the ranks and prove that I was valuable to people who, based on their own perceptions of me, where incapable of seeing me and paying me my worth. I ultimately had to ask myself If I was willing to allow fear to hold me back from my destiny.
I was lucky in that I have support from my family to make this possible, but there are days when I want to undo it all. On those days, I pause, and allow myself to trust the process and let the Universe guide me. So how do you know when it’s time to forge out on your own?
When you value your peace of mind above a pay check. When you consider going on short term disability because the stress is ready to kill you. When you feel an invisible force pushing you in the direction because nothing else you’ve tried has worked out. That’s how you know. Whether or not you actually pay attention to these signs is totally up to you.
Taking the road less traveled has an appeal I know many people find admirable, but I can honestly tell you I didn’t have much of a choice. I went to college, I finished graduate school, I held management positions, but at the end of the day I never felt valued, not professionally, and certainly not monetarily. So what do you do when you’re working your butt off and it’s not paying off on any front? Or you’re working your butt off, but you barely have time to spend with your family, and the money still doesn’t seem to be flowing? You get out of your own way and you try something new. That’s what did and what I continue to do, even when I want to give up.