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The new year has been a bit of a rollercoaster for me. I started on a high, then I last week I was super emotional, and this week I’m back on task…sort of.
The goal setting we all do upon the start of new year can be super stressful. We tell ourselves how amazing the new year will be, and then task ourselves with sometimes unrealistic goals. If you’re a Type-A personality like me, holding yourself accountable can be a huge undertaking. Having ventured intro entrepreneurism only 6 months ago, I sometimes feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I have so so much to prove. And I know I’ve accomplished a lot, way more than I could have imagined, but keeping the momentum and really nailing down what will be the thing that becomes the huge money-maker is still pending.
Being an entrepreneur is, by far, the most rewarding, yet terrifying thing I’ve ever done. Crazier than when I move to New York when I was 22 and penniless. Gosh, that seems like ages ago, but it was rewarding in the end. So much so that it kind of keeps me centered, even today. I’m reminded of how I prevailed in New York. Got a great job. Got engaged and married. Formed the very best friendships. Found an amazing therapist who changed my life, and to whom I am forever grateful. Graduated from Sarah Lawrence College with my MFA. I mean, it took almost 8 years of growing and learning, but whenever I think of my time in New York my memories are fond.
When I work with entrepreneurs today, especially during their down times, I ask them to think back to a time when they were struggling. Struggling emotinally, financially, you name it…just struggling. Think of how long it took, and how, in the end, it worked itself out. Entrepreneurism is hard. It takes years to get it right. But if you stay the course, stay centered, and get help, it comes out okay in the end. There will be moments of doubt, and times of fear, but this is the life we were given.
I don’t know that I ever wanted to be an entrepreneur. I’ve always been creative, and enjoyed thinking outside of the box, but I wanted what everyone else had. I wanted a great-paying job, a house, 2 cars, a husband, and 3 kids. But every time I tried to fit in and mold to any environment, it never worked out. A higher power made it impossible for me to thrive in those circumstances because they weren’t designed for me. The jobs that didn’t work out, the friends I’ve lost…I don’t lament these losses because they weren’t part of the plan. I know that now, and knowing it has released me from feeling badly or guilty about anything I’ve done or not done in the past. I own my present and I am so proud of who I’m becoming. Everyday I breathe in my life and enjoy every moment. Even the shitty ones!
How are you coping with the new year and the resolutions/goals you’ve set for yourself?
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